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Sunday, March 13, 2011

09.11.01. I woke up from a nap that day. And out of habit, I turned on my TV. Just in time for me to see the planes crashing into the Twin Towers at the World Trade Center. The news was showing footages as they were happening. The buildings on fire, people falling off, before the buildings eventually gave way, towers no more. I watched in horror. In disbelief. Somehow wishing it was April fool's day and this was some network's idea of a joke. But it wasn't a joke. And what I thought only happened in the movies, did happen.


03.11.11. It was a quiet afternoon at work. I passed by the monitor as I was going to the bathroom, just as the news was showing huge waves washing away houses, and cars and everything else on its path. I forgot I needed to go to the bathroom. I stood there as slowly more and more people swarmed the TV. We were all asking each other if it was real. Shock. Disbelief. Horror. Denial.

Two events. Almost 10 years apart. Different scenarios - a man-made tragedy against a natural disaster. But very same feelings. These scenes are scenes out of a movie. A kind of movie I don't even like to watch. But there's no escaping this now. This is real. This is life. It's happening. And it's the scariest feeling of all. And I can't help but feel that feeling of impending doom. And all I want to is to run to my husband, my parents, my siblings, my nephews and nieces, my friends. And then it hit me, none of my loved ones where within running distance from me. Most of them were at least an island away.

I don't know how long I stood in front of that TV. My officemates and I were glued, and if someone started it, I think we would have started to hug each other before long. Then I eased away to check up on everyone that I could. My dad called. And we talked and I was just so comforted hearing his voice.

I went through the motions of that day. It was business as usual. But something in me has changed again. The world changed when 9/11 happened. It's changing again now. And it's scary that this time, the "ENEMY" is not someone bearded and in hiding but we know we can find and destroy someday.

Yes, we can be prepared. We can take some preventive measures. But the most that we can do really is pray. Pray for Japan. Pray for the world.

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LOVE AND OTHER DRUGS

Sunday, February 13, 2011


Love and Other Drugs is a feel-good movie. It's a story about our humanity, and how, no matter how bad or evil we think we are, love changes us. Love is a great equalizer. Not matter how rich, smart, beautiful, experienced we are, love will make us do things we sometimes think we're not capable of.


Jamie: I’m full of shit, okay? No, I’m knowingly full of shit. Because I have never cared about anybody or anything in my entire life and the thing is, everybody just kind of accepted that; like that’s just Jamie! And then you, Jesus you… you didn’t see me that way. I have never known anyone who actually believed that I was enough until I met you and then you made me believe it too. So, unfortunately, I need you and you need me.

Maggie: No, I don’t.

Jamie: Yes, you do.

Maggie: Stop saying that!

Jamie: You need someone to take care of you.

Maggie: No, I don’t.

Jamie: Everybody does.


Love will make a serial womanizer give up a budding career to take care of a sick woman. Love will make a man put a bullet through his heart to save his family from shame. Love will make a woman endure distance and timezones. Love will make us hold on to that promise of a life together, through ups and downs, and what-have-you.


Love is so complicated and yet it's so simple - it's what keeps us going. At the end of the day, we do what we do because of love.


Happy V day to all my loved ones and to my R :)

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OH WHY, IT'S 2011!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

I've chronicled my life online since 2001. 10 years definitely flew by so fast. Now we all got our fresh starts. That's the nice thing about life. While we don't have that ever-convenient reboot button, we do get that chance, once a year, to start anew, with a clean slate even.


But the thing is, I don't want to start with a clean slate. My memories, my experiences made me the person I am today, and I certainly don't want to erase anything. But, I do want to take a step back and reflect on what I want to START, STOP and CONTINUE.

Let me start with STOP -

1) I'm definitely over lists. Years ago, I made a before-30 list:

1. Learn how to swim 2. Learn to drive stick-shift 3. Take up diving 4. Learn how to cook 5. Learn CPR

Years later, I still haven't done 2 & 3. I may never take up diving, because open waters scare the s out of me. The thing is, I don't want to drive stick-shift because A/T is just so darn convenient. And yes, I took CPR classes, but I don't know if I'd know how to do it. I cook, yes, so-so, at best. And swim? I took up classes, and let's just say I'm no Michael Phelps. So yeah, I'm done with making lists.

2) I no longer want to overanalyze love. I'll throw in second-guessing myself when it comes to love as well. Yes, I got married barely 3 months after my now hubby proposed, but those 3 months were filled with a lot of doubt. Here's the simple truth - I married the person who knows me best and who understands my family the most. He makes things so simple, it irritates me sometimes, but then I realized, why complicate things? The most important things are really just so simple.

START -

1) I'm going to start just doing things. No lists this time, just live each day to the fullest, doing things that matter to me and my loved ones!

CONTINUE -

1) I shall continue to love madly. There is no reason to hold back. I want to love and give so much, even when it hurts.

2010 was the year that I made so many life-changing decisions. I quit my job, even when I haven't began looking for another one. I knew if I didn't, I would have lost so much more. Then I got married. Something I didn't plan on. We just talked about it, and barely 3 months later, we found ourselves getting married, not once but twice! Haha.

This year, I just want to go back to basics. Live simply. Eat healthily. Exercise regularly. Love madly.

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