LAST POST FOR ‘05

It has been a great year all in all. After the tumultuous ’04 and ’03, I needed this year. I am blessed with so many friends, and my family is always, always there. Work and career is not that bad, but could definitely be better. But I smell something better next year… Cross fingers ;) Lovelife? Well, there are times I wish the pseudo-relationships would stop, and the real ones start happening again. But I can wait. After hurrying through a certain phase, waiting is definitely a welcome option. I don’t want to repeat the mistakes of the past. And I really wanna get it right next time. Not everyone gets a second chance. I’m lucky to have gotten one.

To everyone who has been a part of this wonderful year, and even to those who were just closely watching in the sidelines, a big THANK YOU. And see you again next year.

Have a blessed, loving Christmas and a joyous new year!!

AMAZING RACE

It has been my fantasy to join Amazing race someday. I specially liked the Amazing race family edition because it was very Pinoy. You know, the race showed us that families always come first, no matter where we are in the world!

In reality, of course, I have to get in shape first. Hehe. But deep inside me is an adventurous person, who, in spite of the many fears, will end up doing what needs to be done anyways. Case in point: skydiving, bungee jumping. Believe me, for someone with such an irrational fear of heights, those were two of the most difficult things I ever did in my life.

Our Sagada adventure proved to me that my acrophobia is still there, but at least, it has not paralyzed me to the point where I will lose the utter joy in any task I choose to embark in. I loved everything we did in Sagada. From the long hike down to the Big Falls (passing through several bangin), to the spelunking cum rock climbing cum wall climbing, etc. I would do it again, definitely. I really would. It’s not a once-in-a-lifetime thing like that downhill biking we did in Makiling a few months back. Someone once told me, we have to try everything at least once. Life is not worth living if we choose to live in a box. True. True. And while I have stopped making lists of things to do before I die, I promised myself to do something new every year. This year, I managed to do a lot of new things WITHOUT regret. I even freakin’ ate balut for the 1^st time ever. I had my 1^st bite in Boracay (because we taunted our foreign visitors to do so, so I had to eat my share.. hehe). The 2^nd bite was in our Christmas party because my boss is always the 1^st to challenge me to do crazy things. Hahaha.

Speaking of no regrets, let me just put this in writing. Jay, I take back what I said. I will not run away from the memories. I will not regret anything. We make our choices, and the better man will always stand by those choices, no matter what the consequences. And if this other friend was right in saying I was just taken for a ride, then at least I enjoyed the ride while it lasted.

After all, isn’t our life just one long ride? If we don’t know how to enjoy it, bumps and all, then we are bound to live in misery. Life is one big amazing race to the finish line. But only if we let it happen.

WHERE ARE YOU?

I received a late night text from Aussie last night. He was just saying hello. Odd because he has never done that before. But I needed that hello more than anything last night. I miss him. I miss the sweetness that didn’t expect anything in return. I miss the simplicity of it. I miss his sincerity. I miss everything about him.

Sometimes I get impatient about the way things are going between us. He keeps telling me to wait. God knows how many times I was tempted to bail. To run back into the arms of bestie. But like I told Jay, I no longer want meantime boys. Neither do I want to be a meantime girl. That story has gotten so old. Though I should say I got a little bit off course recently. My bad.

CHRISTMAS IS IN TWO WEEKS!

Or less, actually. And I have not done any Christmas shopping. Well, I did buy some stuff for “friends”. Eventually, those stuff found their way into my wardrobe.. Hehehe. Bad. I’m not sure how I’ll pull this off. Days are becoming more hectic with all the Christmas dinners/parties and what-nots going on. Gaaaaaaaah!!

I had a fire therapy last night. I’ve not been feeling well and my sister recommended me to a doctor who performs alternative medicine including acupuncture. Between needles and fire, I chose fire. It was scary to see my belly burning. Darn, it was so hot! My back is still hurting like hell today, and they said that’s normal because of all the toxins in my body. I’m supposed to go for a few more sessions, but I’m not sure I can stand all this pain. All of a sudden, I feel very healthy. Hahaha.

Anyway, I learned this new excuse in case I get caught for not wearing a seatbelt. A friend of mine was driving in Ortigas without the belt and was stopped by an officer. Very quickly she came up with this excuse, “I’m sorry officer, but my breasts are still swollen since I just came out of breast surgery.”. The officer took one look at her size 38b’s and let her go instantly.. Hmmmmmmm J

Savor every moment in your life. Once it’s gone, it will never come back. You won’t own anything but that moment, because memories fade, much sooner than you think.

BORA HANGOVER

I have been quite groggy for almost two weeks now. Last night my manager told me to have fun but not be late for work today. Harhar. That’s the disadvantage of your boss being your friend, too. He knows me too well.

Anyhow, Bora was fun. I wouldn’t mind feeling its powdery white sand on my feet any time. Or being kissed by the sun (though it was raining most of Friday night and Saturday morning). I loved Puka. Felt like another island altogether. Quiet, good food, but I didn’t like the waves. Gaah. Scares the hell out of me.. J

I left on Sunday with a heavy heart. Bora does that to me all the time.