I didn't want to blog about R anymore. But he's been such a huge part of my life the past year, in spite of the fact that we were oceans apart for the most part, and there is one simple truth. I love him.
Enough to forgive all his mistakes and what-nots, and overcoming all the feelings of hurt and betrayal. Well, I'm only human, and Lord knows how much I struggle to move past the hurt. Thankfully, he didn't do anything totally unforgivable. And I just hope that he will make good his promise to replace all the bad memories with good ones. He said things will be better from now on.
So far so good. But with only two more weeks until he sets off again, we will once again be back to the original dilemna. Or at least, I will be. Do I really want to be in a long-distance relationship?
This time I won't be running to old lovers just to escape from the problems I have to deal with. Not that I did this time around. Though I tried. And failed. Haha. Which is a good thing. Thank God for interventions :p
I have to once again, face myself in the mirror, and know what I really want. Get connected with my truth. That is apparently one principle for happiness.
And here's another truth. It's amazing how so many of us can settle for so much less than we deserve, in the name of love.