AWKWARD GOODBYE #2
After what happened, I didn't expect him to call me. But of course I hoped he would. And he did. Left me voicemail twice. But I didn't return his call. I realized I didn't want to talk to him anymore. I would have wanted just to avoid him forever.
After all, nothing has changed. Not the fact that I still fell for him, despite my resolve not to. I found a lot of excuses. Like I didn't like that he wore blue socks, or that he's not as witty or does not have that sarcasm about him that I've come to like in people nowadays. But there were gazellion reasons why I still liked him. I liked that he liked photography, writing.. arts.. That he shared the same zest for life and its adventures. How we both want life outside of this cold technical dungeon we're both in... The way that he knew how to fix things - a broken sofa bed, a nasty hangover.. How to take care of me in more ways than one.. The way that he made me smile with his impersonation of me... And yeah, haha, the way we both like Vicks.. But the simple truth remains. Him and me = NOT.
He finally did catch me on the phone. And after spending several minutes talking about trivial things like the weather, his laptop upgrade, the gym, Bob Marley ... we finally ran out of inanities and we had to talk about the inevitable. Us. Only there's no us. And there never will. Yeah, some things are just final like that.
The longer the pause was, the more painful and awkward it became. No more words to say to each other. And the things that we did want to say but cannot, were better left unsaid.
Sometimes, the no-brainer choices are even harder to make. But you become a better person for making it. A sad, hurting person, but a better person, nonetheless.
Or so I tell myself that :)
Dose Me
- Petite
- Mark
- Jude
- Rene
- Sieggy
- Nic
- Elmer
- Jonna
- Must Love Dogs
- Jeepney Diaries
- Yuan
- Fragmented
- Beach House
- October 2001
- November 2001
- December 2001
- January 2002
- February 2002
- March 2002
- April 2002
- May 2002
- June 2002
- July 2002
- August 2002
- September 2002
- October 2002
- November 2002
- December 2002
- January 2003
- February 2003
- March 2003
- April 2003
- May 2003
- June 2003
- July 2003
- August 2003
- September 2003
- October 2003
- November 2003
- December 2003
- January 2004
- February 2004
- March 2004
- April 2004
- May 2004
- June 2004
- July 2004
- August 2004
- September 2004
- October 2004
- May 2005
- November 2005
- December 2005
- January 2006
- February 2006
- March 2006
- April 2006
- May 2006
- June 2006
- July 2006
- August 2006
- September 2006
- October 2006
- November 2006
- December 2006
- January 2007
- February 2007
- March 2007
- April 2007
- May 2007
- June 2007
- July 2007
- August 2007
- October 2007
- November 2007
- January 2008
- February 2008
- March 2008
- April 2008
- May 2008
- June 2008
- August 2008
- September 2008
- October 2008
- November 2008
- December 2008
- January 2009
- March 2009
- April 2009
- May 2009
- July 2009
- August 2009
- September 2009
- October 2009
- November 2009
- January 2010
- February 2010
- March 2010
- April 2010
- May 2010
- July 2010
- August 2010
- January 2011
- February 2011
- March 2011
- May 2012
- December 2012
- September 2013
Virtual Hug
Spoonful of Music
Eye Candy
always on vacation mode ;)
Vitamin F
Memory Boosters
