I had another petty fight with R and now I'm so infuriarated I can't sleep. On a serious note, I think things between us has been really painful lately - in that we both know that we should be ending this, but are too afraid to let go. And so instead we're awaiting its death slowly and more painfully by the minute. On a lighter note, I'd rather answer this survey I swiped from Jay's multiply rather than blog about my relationship woes.

1. Talked to a boy/girl you like? Yeah, and he told me he liked to listen to my laughter so much he wants to record it and make it his ringtone. Aliw!
2. Learned anything new? Yeah but I won't tell ;)
3. Talked to an ex? Not in a long time, thank goodness
4. Miss someone? Yes and No. I miss R, but in a way I'm also glad he has gone back home..

the last person who...
5. Laid in your bed? R
6. Made you cry? R
7. You went to the movies with? my nephew (The Simpsons)
8. mall with? R
9. Who Made you laugh? R
10. Said they love you? R

General Stuff
11. Favorite location? the beach (where I was last weekend)
12. What are you most scared of? death of my loved ones
13. Will you ever get married? I want to say yes...
14. Does anyone like you? The one who likes to hear my laughter. Haha
15. Do you like being around people? Most of the time
16. Have you cried recently? Yeah
17. Are you lonely right now? No
18. Song stuck in your head ? "I'm way too cool for you, boy, that's why it will never work. I'll have you suicidal, suicidal, when I say it's over"
20. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap? my very own Ylmaz!
21. What color shirt do you have right now? gray
22. Name three things that you are doing
Listening to music, blogging, downloading music
23. How much cash do you have on you right now? not sure, I went shopping yesterday.. probably around 2k na lang
24. Are you bored? Not really. But I can't sleep and it's way past bedtime!
25. Whats your favorite show? Heroes, super dami!
26. Who got you to join Friendster? An ex
27. Wish someone was next to you in the morning when you wake up? It feels nice when I wake up with his arms still around me...
28. What web site do you visit the most? lately, multiply, to download some music. hehe..
29. Do you have plants in your room? Nope but I have a live one in my kitchen (given to us by our office, and I don't know what to do with it!)
30. Who was the last person to hug you? R

21 SECRETS
1. WHAT IS YOUR SHOUTOUT ABOUT? missing R (quoting Cristina Yang from Grey's Anatomy)
2. WHERE WAS YOUR DEFAULT PICTURE TAKEN? In Friendster - Something Fishy; In Multiply - Eagle Point Resort:)
3. WHAT IS YOUR MUSIC/VIDEOS ABOUT? lots of different genre
4. HONESTLY, IF SOMEONE WERE TO TELL YOU HOW THEY FELT, WOULD YOU LISTEN? Yup!
5. WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD? Uneasy and unsure
6. WHATS YOUR MOST VALUED POSSESSION? my car, sark (I don't consider people my possessions :))
8. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, AND CHANGE SOMETHING WOULD YOU? Yes! haha. I have no regrets, but if given a chance, I'd want to erase my memories of my "Ylmaz"
9. IF YOU MUST BE AN ANIMAL FOR ONE DAY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE? I used to want to be a bird, but now I want to be a fish, because I couldn't swim to save my life, so maybe after then, it will come naturally :)
10. EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE? Yeah (at least the surgeon told me I had 30% chance of dying)
11. WHATS THE NAME OF THE SONG THATS STUCK IN YOUR HEAD? Beautiful Girls
12.WHO DID YOU COPY AND PASTE THIS FROM? Jay's multiply nga eh
13. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A LARGE AUDIENCE? Yeah, lots of times :p Kapal din mukha ko minsan eh. hahaha!
14. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX OR SAME SEX? fingers
16. DO YOU STILL WATCH KIDDY MOVIES OR TV SHOW? I love watching all variations of Power Rangers reruns
19. DO YOU SPEAK ANY OTHER LANGUAGE? nope
20. IS THERE SOMEONE ON YOUR MIND NOW? R
21. WHAT HURTS YOU RIGHT NOW? To be in love with someone who ain't right for me :(

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*Something forbidden you have done that might surprise your friends: ( .... )
*People should not marry before this age: 25
*People should not have children before this age: 18
*The appropriate age for having sex: 22 (or whenever you're out of college)
*Your most recent lie: I have a boyfriend (to someone who asked me to have sex with him..)
*A lie you tell yourself: That I no longer love him...
*Something you have stolen that was not worth the risk: n/a
*One person you have killed in your thoughts: One of the ex's kabits
*One person you might kill if you knew the law would protect you: same girl
*Name a friend you should not have kissed: D?
*Describe a moment when you achieved absolute happiness: Don't think there's such a thing...
*Recall a compliment that made you blush: My classmate called me beautiful and he was not making a pass at me (or so I think, but sometimes I can be naive..)
*Write about your most beautiful and your most horrifying memory of your parents: One night, after gimik, I came in to the living room to find my dad half asleep on the sofa.. It's a beautiful sight to remind me how much our parents really still worry about us, even when we're way past drinking age... As for the horrifying, I choose to be mum about that..
*Does a naked photo of you exist? ho-hum ;)

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What is your dream vacation? Backpacking in Europe

Which year would you have wanted to last twice as long? Hmm… Must be 1990..

If your name will be in the headline of every national newspaper tomorrow, what would the headline be? Trying to be good, wanting to bad.

What images come to your mind when asked about your childhood? Goldilocks caramel popcorn, Hao flakes

If you had to live in another country for the rest of your life, where would it be? Costa Rica

Name your top 3 dream jobs? Rockstar, Journalist, Porn star (haha, joke)

What, to you, is the greatest evidence of love? Life. Children are born because of love. We feel alive because of love.

First kiss, how was it? The one I remember was when this boy kissed me on the cheek. It was his first kiss, and he told me I made him the happiest man in the world because of that. Sweet lang.

Who or what do you miss most? Innocence

One word that best describes you? Charming (naks)

What is the best song for the broken hearted? Panahon na para Magsaya.. (hahaha. Jologs!)

Your weakness? I can be gullible at times

Your Fears? Death of my loved ones.

Your perfect Pizza? Pepperoni. Thick... crust.

What is one thing you want to achieve? Aside from world peace, a body like Patricia Javier's.. hehe.

Your thoughts upon waking up in the morning? Argh. Will I make it to my 7AM meeting?

Best Memory and why? April 8, 2003. On that day, I believed in happily ever after.

Do you Curse? Yap. Bad nga eh.

Do you Sing Well? Like a pro (hahaha..)

Do you think you're attractive? It’s all in the mind. :p I think, therefore I am.. hahahaha

Are you a health freak? I wish. Dami akong bad habits.

When was the last time you fell in love? Right now. :D

How many times have you been dumped? When was the last one? No pa naman.

Last time you made out with someone? I’m not kiss and tell.. Hehehe.. In short, a long time ago.. hahahaha

Last time on a date? 1st week of May.. Shux.. I don’t have a dating life :D

Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothes? How was it? Yep. But it was very PG.

Have you already been caught "doing something"? Hell, no.

Have you ever changed who you were to fit in? No but I’m a shapeshifter. I can easily adapt.

Do you plan to get married? Don’t want na. For now.

Which country would you most like to visit? Italy

Do you have any piercing? Where? Sa ears pa lang.

Do you do drugs? Ibuprofen, mostly.. hehe

Have you ever given someone a bath? Evil grin ;)

Have you ever smoked? Like a curse

Who would you hate being locked in a room with? Can’t think of anyone that annoying right now. Siguro si FPJ. Mahirap maghanap ng pag-uusapan.

Who would you want to be locked in a room with? Brad Pitt.. He is so beautiful that even if I just stare at him, and even without conversation, I’d be content.

Favorite brand of underwear? VS

What makes you happy? I can give a profound answer on this.. But yung mababaw lang, getting more than 5 hours of sleep.

What makes you sad? I’ve manage to accumulate painful memories that will last me a lifetime. And it makes me sad whenever I remember.

Cute ka ba? Hell yeah.. (hahaha, kapal)

Best advice given to you? Go and multiply? Joke.. Live each day as if it is your last.

Best advice you'd give yourself? T*ngna.. Tigilan na ang kaka-senti.. Kalimutan mo na ang gagung yun! :P

Future Goals? Purchase a house. Then retire.

Do you like dancing? Yup yup

Are you shy to ask someone out? Yah.. I can be very conservative when it comes to that.

What's the stupidest thing you've ever done? Not that I’ll ever admit that here… hehehe

Worst sickness? Not sickness, but I had a major surgery

Scary or happy movie? Happy all the way

On the phone or in person? In person. But I've tried both. Hahaha.

Worst feeling? When I can't sleep.. like right now

If you were to time travel, when would you like to go? 2003

If you were given superpowers, what would that be? The power to heal, including myself

If you're going to be reincarnated, what would you be? I wanna try being male next time

What is your wildest fantasy? Marry Brandon Boyd.. Taken na si Brad Pitt eh..

When is it time to let go? When you have become the worst version of yourself.. Pag binubugbog ka na..

Favorite movie quote? The most recent one: "I don’t need a hero, I need a man I can grow old with" – Troy

Best TV show quote? “Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.”— Sex and the City

Moment in your life which you wouldn't want to end? Why? The day I believed happily ever after was possible. Because now, I no longer do.

What is the best gift you can give your self? Loving and respecting myself.

What does your blog title got to do with this survey? Wala. I am directing that to the person occuping my thoughts at the moment. :D

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But I'm too tamad to blog about it... So I'll just post answers to a survey I found while browsing through other blogs :)

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About :D, new guy (sort of) L, Troy (the movie), Bora
Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought : movie tickets, green tea frap, north park dinner, cosmo
Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink : diet coke, water, coffee, SML
Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It: last year (to a guy)..
Last Time You Cried ? last week
What's In Your CD Player ? Incubus
What Color Socks Are You Wearing ? nada
What Time Did You Wake Up Today ? 8AM
Current hair ? dark brown with red/gold streaks
Current Clothes ? tank and shorts
Current Longing ? bora
Current Desktop Picture? sunrise taken in cebu
Current Worry? this upcoming date i have with new guy L
Current Hate? ala naman.
Last CD You Bought? incubus, i think
Favorite Place To Be? beach
Least Favorite Place? cavite
If You Could Play An Instrument? guitar
Favorite Color(s)? Black, blue, purple
Do You Believe In An Afterlife ? Yes.
How Tall Are You ? 5'0"
Current Favorite Word/Saying ? gagu
Favorite Season? summer (and spring)
One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could talk to?my lolo.. he left too soon..
Favorite Day? Saturday.
Where Would You Like To Go ?Europe.

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