Too many words have been said between us the last couple of weeks. Admittedly, the fact that I'm getting little sleep or that I'm quite booked and stressed at work, aggravates the situation. Crankiness to the highest level.

At one point he told me he'd rather stop speaking to me than have a fight with me. Argh. Asar. How about resolving our issues? Admittedly, though, there are no easy answers to our "issues" just yet.

So for now we called a truce. He told me our fights were giving him sleepless nights, and I definitely know how that feels, so I don't wish that on him. Besides, he's oceans away from here and I know it's not easy to be away from his loved ones. And he has a lot of things on his mind as well. His Tita, who is really more of like a mom to him, had a diabetic stroke last year, and had gone into a coma, the day before he was scheduled to go back to work in the States. She eventually recovered, but she has to go thru dialysis every week.

One of my heartaches is that I'm far away from my family and that I'm not going to be there immediately if they need me. And whatever heartache I feel, I'm sure it's double or triple for him, because it's not like he can just book himself a flight at will. And just recently, he learned that the doctors may need to cut-off one of his Tita's feet due to a wound which got worse. Grabeh. So of course I feel so small for adding to his worries. We will just deal with all this relationship blues when it's time. And I guess now is not yet the time.

For now, I'll just hang on to the love we still have for each other. Hopefully it will help get us through this low point in our relationship.

P.S. Also not helping our relationship is the latest turn of events. My biz trip was pushed back to late April, and it overlaps with a trip we've planned when he comes back that month. To add to that, a side trip to visit my best friend in Cali is now less likely to happen, given my tight sked. I was tempted to say no to the biz trip because it means time less away from him during his short home leave. But then again, that is a great career opportunity for me. I thought I'm over being a career person, but I'm not. Thankfully, a compromise is highly likely. So cross fingers for that. But damn you Cebu Pacific for non-refundable tickets!

Labels: R, relationships

I've always been a believer in the law of the effortless - if it's too easy, then it's probably meant to be. But in the real world, effortless is as fleeting as the wind.

Things have become more difficult between the boy and I. The reality of us being in different places (literally and figuratively) at this point of our lives is slowly eating away everything that brought us together in the first place.

I'm not pressed to make any decision right now, but it's heartbreaking to think that the ending of our fairytale will soon unfold. And it's not the happily-ever-after kind...

Labels: life, love, R, relationships

Jumping in the bandwagon here, in terms of long-delayed new year posts. Haha.

I wasn't actively blogging so let me just give a bulleted list for the highlights...

1. R News - Stronger than ever. Lots of mini-trips. Sharing interests. Things are going well. Our bond is getting tighter in spite of the distance. And the distance is allowing us to continue to grow and go after what we want in life. And then there's the bonus of having one more important person to share your aspirations with.

2. Entertainment News - Watching a Pacquiao fight in the big screen. Beyonce. Avenue Q. Lots of wonderful films - Stardust, included. Enchanted Kingdom after 10 years, and the magic is still alive. Watch PNE perform live, TWICE. I love you, Chito! :)

3. Work News - Switched jobs in the middle of the year. Big adjustments. I'm in a different timezone but same country. Argh. But things are definitely picking up. Two awards in less than 6 months. A biz trip in the works. Great new team. And I came out of my shell, in a totally different light. As in, in a performing-on-stage-wearing-big-hair kind of way. Hahaha. Seriously.

4. Travel News - Hotel getaways - Marco Polo in Cebu has a great view. Manila Pen is always our fave, but what now after the siege :) Steer clear of Clearwaters in Pampanga. Not worth it. C anyon Woods is a haven. Eagle Point in Batangas. Baguio. Subic. Corregidor. Cebu. Taiwan. I had a great time exploring as always. And I think this year will be bigger in terms of travelling. I love it!

5. Family News - My older sister went to Canada. My younger sister is due to deliver her second baby soon. i finally got to visit my other younger sis in Taiwan after all this time. My youngest niece is growing too fast. Everyone's in good health. The family biz is still a source of discussion, as always. But I think things are working out great for everyone. It's still all so Brothers and Sisters. But then, I love my family just the way they are.

6. Friendster News - It was the year of wedding bells. My cousin's wedding included. Two high school friends got married. Not to each other. Although interestingly, they used to be an item. Way back when :) And not so interestingly, for reasons that I'll never understand, I wasn't informed about one of my so-called barkada's wedding. Howell. I will not speculate. But it's a little sad.

7. MiscellaNews - Haha. Corny. I got into boxing. Only to stop after a few sessions. And I want to go back. I finally got into Photography. I even took lessons. There are so many things I want to do. I want to be complete. Wahaha.

Labels: life, travel

The last time I updated my wish list was last October. Nothing much has changed since then. But I've since come up with new items to lust for. Harhar. And a couple of resolutions. Here 'ya go:

2007 Wish List:
1. Japanese platform bed - CHECK
2. Pink Notebook - I'm going to the U.S. for a biz trip in a couple of months (if stars align, haha) and I'm going to scope out the prospects :)
3. D80 dSLR - CHECK
4. HP AC - oops, I totally forgot about this and summer is fast approaching. Time to scope out the appliance stores :)
5. New car - Hmmm.. still flaky about this.. Let's see..
6. Singapore trip - Junked in lieu of our Taiwan trip last Christmas, so I say this once is CHECK

** I also wanted to get a P&S camera to satisty my spontaneous cam-whoring needs but instead I got the SE K850i phone (5mp Cybershot)... Well, at least it's dual purpose. But I really just wanted a cam.

2008 Wish List:
1. Pink Notebook
2. New AC
3. Car-- well, it's a wish list, so I'll still keep it
4. Ipod Touch
5. Shoe Closet and some more cabinets for my spare room which I want to turn into a big closet anyways
6. Shake hands with Mickey :)

As for my resolutions:
1. Learn to swim - goshdarnit, this was in my before 30 list. Damn. haha
2. Go somewhere I've never been to -- with R. Yey!! I'm soooo excited :)
3. Quit smoking - So far, well, not so good. But i'm getting there!
4. Go boxing again - So far... argh! I still have to step foot in the gym..
5. Be a photography master! hehe :)

and well, lastly, invest in a couple more stuff... Have to do some grown up stuff somehow. Hehe

Labels: New year, resolutions, wish list

Happy New Year!



Whew. What a journey it has been... 2007 was definitely full of blessings and great memories with family, SO and friends.

The year ended great with a trip to Taiwan with most of the family for Christmas... and a nice year-ender getaway in a nice uphill hotel back home.

We really would have loved if all of the family got together, but this was as best as we could manage considering the circumstances.




2008 looks quite hopeful. Nice career news... Loving sweetie .. Great friends.. and an always reliant and nurturing family at my side.. Really couldn't ask for more.

Labels: family, SO, vacation